okay, so today was report card day. i wasn’t that nervous. i think the problems i’ve been facing the past week have numbed me, which is a good thing, by the way. oh wait, just kidding =))! the reason why i wasn’t really worried is that my adviser sticks hints on your diary on the outcome of your report card. i already knew mine meant getting a gold eagle (highest academic award given quarterly in school for students who have a general average of at least 92 and no numerical grade below 85 and no letter grade below B). i was really relieved. i thought i’d be disqualified from an eagle award this quarter (which will also disqualify me from receiving a medal on graduation, tough huh?). so yeah, i was really relieved and relaxed.
i did get a gold eagle. my average did get higher compared to last time. sad to say, it’s still low. sad to say, there are still how many people above me. sad to say, i’m not gonna be in the honor’s society (club exclusively for the top 15 students of every batch) anymore next year. i will try to come back there senior year :). but guess what? i’m not yet disqualified from running for honors! i can always make up for it, i hope…
honestly, even i surprised myself this time. i feel free. i don’t feel sad. i don’t feel like sulking. i feel okay even if im probably rank —- again. hahahah. have my problems numbed me or have i simply accepted my limitations?
must. try. harder. why are my efforts no longer working?
i hope everything still goes according to plan.
STAP is gonna be around 2 weeks from now. i am so excited! my teacher doesn’t know what joy he has given me for selecting me to be the student teacher for social studies!!!!!
STAP is a program where in students act as teachers and administrators for 3-5 days. selected students get a feel of the job. they even get to dress up make lesson plans and everything else that teachers do.
i am so happy. with all the potential stap’s in my class, i was chosen! first time! i am so loving it. i wanted to do this ever since i’ve heard of it. and for social studies too! social studies is one of my loved subjects. i can’t wait!
good vibes. good vibes.